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eta honked 21 Jan 2022 17:56 +0000

the small child about 3 metres away from my train seat is playing some mobile game that is making a "kerching" sound effect at approximately 1.5 Hz

previously, they were watching some children's TV programme at a relatively loud volume

I have made mistakes (not taking my nice reserved table seat in the quiet coach)

eta honked 21 Jan 2022 16:57 +0000

turns out if Trainline doesn't have a last name for you they fill in "Customer" instead :p

(you can induce this, for example, by having a mononym on your Google Account and signing in with that)


eta honked 21 Jan 2022 15:18 +0000

huh, I now have so many honks that Chrome stutters for about 5 seconds when I try and render them all on one page


eta honked 21 Jan 2022 15:07 +0000

problem: even when I'm at my computer logged into weechat, my watch vibrates whenever I get an IRC notification (even if I'm literally staring at the buffer!)

janktastic solution: install IrssiNotifier (https://irssinotifier.appspot.com/) on phone and in weechat. configure it to only send notifications when marked as away (as in, when I'm not at my computer). disable IrssiNotifier notifications on the phone, enable them on the watch (keeping weechat-android notifications on the phone).

the problem is this'll now vibrate the watch when I'm using the phone, sigh. maybe I should just pay IRCCloud

eta honked 21 Jan 2022 11:40 +0000

mmm laptop having a normal one

[text is just h.eta.st/about]


eta honked 21 Jan 2022 11:38 +0000

the Trans Cube is being advertised to me


eta honked 20 Jan 2022 22:28 +0000

applied for a new UK GHIC (Global Health Insurance Card) ...because I noticed the EHIC in my wallet has my deadname on it, which isn't good

they've made this process a lot easier since last time; it used to be a very janky form on the NHS Business Services Authority website (and I think you had to pay for it), whereas the new flow is basically in line with gov.uk standards

eta honked 20 Jan 2022 22:11 +0000

was looking in my ticket storage box and found the Sheffield Supertram Megarider wallet

this is an awkward form factor thing that serves to make the piece of £15.50 flimsy receipt paper less easy to lose or crumple!


eta honked 20 Jan 2022 22:04 +0000

I wonder what the W and upside down intermittent W mean


eta honked 20 Jan 2022 22:03 +0000

this sign is older than me, and has British Rail and Lewisham 2000 branding!

[found yesterday in Lewisham]


eta honked 19 Jan 2022 18:33 +0000

[cw self-harm] today in "screwed up shit that I mostly forgot about until now": was reminded of the time someone on IRC or something like that implied my actions were responsible for them harming themselves

basically just remembered "you made me cut my arms" with not much in the way of additional context, hrm

I don't think this actually bothered me that much; probably why I didn't remember it until something prompted it

eta honked 18 Jan 2022 13:15 +0000

today's weird Rust futures quirk:

the following trait bounds were not satisfied: FuturesUnordered<Box<dyn futures::Future<Output = Result<ClientTiming, anyhow::Error>>>>: futures::Stream

so, FuturesUnordered implements Stream when its type parameter implements Future (there's an impl<F: Future> Stream for FuturesUnordered<F>).

surely Box<F> implements Future if F: Future, and thus Box<dyn Future> implements Future?

no! F also has to be Unpin, so you need to use Box::pin (in this case at least; the actual future was an async move block)

the diagnostic error message could definitely be improved to point this out, although I can see why it hasn't been :p


eta honked 18 Jan 2022 12:57 +0000

thinking about how a lot of my own maladaptive patterns of thinking were actually created to overcome ~ADHD-esque behaviours; I managed to force myself to do work by believing that my self-worth depended on it (a pretty strong urgency motivator), but at the expense of my mental health

maybe I should just try and fix the ADHD, or whatever it is?

eta honked 15 Jan 2022 01:23 +0000

it's "weird" how it's often hard to imagine a state where I would be perfectly at ease with the causes of my anxiety

nice demonstration of the idea that certain mental health issues are inextricably linked to the beliefs you hold, I guess :p

eta honked 15 Jan 2022 01:18 +0000

feeling like I'm able to come to terms with certain mental health issues more constructively again, which is weird

like, going to a state where I can sense the potential for raw anxiety, but not actually letting it happen