the small child about 3 metres away from my train seat is playing some mobile game that is making a "kerching" sound effect at approximately 1.5 Hz
previously, they were watching some children's TV programme at a relatively loud volume
I have made mistakes (not taking my nice reserved table seat in the quiet coach)
turns out if Trainline doesn't have a last name for you they fill in "Customer" instead :p
(you can induce this, for example, by having a mononym on your Google Account and signing in with that)
huh, I now have so many honks that Chrome stutters for about 5 seconds when I try and render them all on one page
I now have the "jank it up!" thing from https://youtu.be/S-3wEC6Fj_8?t=3432 playing in my head whenever I do stupid shit like this
problem: even when I'm at my computer logged into
weechat, my watch vibrates whenever I get an IRC notification (even if I'm literally staring at the buffer!)
janktastic solution: install IrssiNotifier (https://irssinotifier.appspot.com/) on phone and in
weechat. configure it to only send notifications when marked as away (as in, when I'm not at my computer). disable IrssiNotifier notifications on the phone, enable them on the watch (keeping
weechat-android notifications on the phone).
the problem is this'll now vibrate the watch when I'm using the phone, sigh. maybe I should just pay IRCCloud
mmm laptop having a normal one
[text is just h.eta.st/about]
the Trans Cube is being advertised to me
applied for a new UK GHIC (Global Health Insurance Card) ...because I noticed the EHIC in my wallet has my deadname on it, which isn't good
they've made this process a lot easier since last time; it used to be a very janky form on the NHS Business Services Authority website (and I think you had to pay for it), whereas the new flow is basically in line with gov.uk standards
I was thinking of using it for regular tram tickets but that's Banned according to its documentation (??)
This wallet is only to be used with a Megarider ticket.
was looking in my ticket storage box and found the Sheffield Supertram Megarider wallet
this is an awkward form factor thing that serves to make the piece of £15.50 flimsy receipt paper less easy to lose or crumple!
I wonder what the W and upside down intermittent W mean
this sign is older than me, and has British Rail and Lewisham 2000 branding!
[found yesterday in Lewisham]
I really wish I'd retained my chat logs from this period properly so I'd have something to go on here ._.
unfortunately ~2015-eta didn't really care about not losing data
[cw self-harm] today in "screwed up shit that I mostly forgot about until now": was reminded of the time someone on IRC or something like that implied my actions were responsible for them harming themselves
basically just remembered "you made me cut my arms" with not much in the way of additional context, hrm
I don't think this actually bothered me that much; probably why I didn't remember it until something prompted it
today's weird Rust futures quirk:
the following trait bounds were not satisfied:
FuturesUnordered<Box<dyn futures::Future<Output = Result<ClientTiming, anyhow::Error>>>>: futures::Stream
Stream when its type parameter implements
Future (there's an
impl<F: Future> Stream for FuturesUnordered<F>).
F: Future, and thus
Box<dyn Future> implements
F also has to be
Unpin, so you need to use
Box::pin (in this case at least; the actual future was an
async move block)
the diagnostic error message could definitely be improved to point this out, although I can see why it hasn't been :p
thinking about how a lot of my own maladaptive patterns of thinking were actually created to overcome ~ADHD-esque behaviours; I managed to force myself to do work by believing that my self-worth depended on it (a pretty strong urgency motivator), but at the expense of my mental health
maybe I should just try and fix the ADHD, or whatever it is?
it's "weird" how it's often hard to imagine a state where I would be perfectly at ease with the causes of my anxiety
nice demonstration of the idea that certain mental health issues are inextricably linked to the beliefs you hold, I guess :p
update: have had this happen for quite a lot of today; it sucks
feeling like I'm able to come to terms with certain mental health issues more constructively again, which is weird
like, going to a state where I can sense the potential for raw anxiety, but not actually letting it happen