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eta honked 03 Dec 2021 18:10 +0000

trams every 12 minutes, they said

a fast way to get to the city centre, they said

[the Sheffield Supertram is a bit fucked]


eta honked 03 Dec 2021 08:23 +0000

ooh, I think this is some Rail Alphabet 2 at Euston


eta honked 02 Dec 2021 12:37 +0000

✅ patches obtained!!

for some reason I'm unreasonably excited

have enough to last like. 4 months? and it only cost £10 (!)

(also the prescription was issued under my deadname, sigh NHS)


eta honked 02 Dec 2021 09:27 +0000

turns out a Stadia Controller is pretty good for playing Celeste (which is good, since that's what I bought it for :p)

the D-pad feels like it's made out of 4 tact switches, which is okay; doing diagonal presses on it is doable, but requires slight thought

this is fine, though; the issue I had with the 360 controller was diagonal presses being too easy to do accidentally :p


eta honked 01 Dec 2021 19:16 +0000

✅ bridging prescription get! (for e2 patches, only)

a bunch of fun good and bad news:

  • my liver and kidneys still work; I don't have diabetes, either
  • my vitamin D levels are really low; they said the normal range was 50-200 somethings and I scored 38 (!)
  • testosterone was fully suppressed
  • ...but the estrogen I was taking was totally undetected, indicating the hemihydrate pills weren't working at all (perhaps fake)
  • prolactin was higher than normal, but not dangerously so

so basically I get e2 patches now, and stop taking cyproterone; in 3 months' time, they'll do a blood test to see whether e2 on its own is sufficient to suppress testosterone

if it isn't, I'll get the GnRH agonists (yay!), since it's demonstrable that cyproterone is having a negative effect

eta honked 01 Dec 2021 18:28 +0000

agh darn, why do I always get very anxious right before a doctor's appointment

(I mean, to be fair, at this one I get to find out whether my kidneys and liver still function, so it's somewhat more high-stakes...)


eta honked 01 Dec 2021 14:51 +0000

✅ painted my nails again (this time, without any soft people nearby)

kind of screwed up the brush for the base coat though; oops


eta honked 30 Nov 2021 16:51 +0000

it's interesting how viscerally I react to hearing / seeing my deadname now, given how much I didn't care about it before

like I always used to have a mild preference for "eta", and tolerated anything else, but now I almost physically recoil on hearing the wrong name

eta honked 28 Nov 2021 15:32 +0000

oh huh, I didn't know the London Assembly were looking into transgender healthcare issues (found this just scrolling through their website idly)

Experiences of discrimination and unequal treatment include inappropriate diagnoses, denial of treatment, and Trans Broken Arm Syndrome – when a healthcare provider assumes that all medical issues are a result of a person being trans.


eta honked 27 Nov 2021 21:55 +0000

weird to be on an empty Jubilee train for once :p


eta honked 27 Nov 2021 21:54 +0000

why is Wembley Park so massive? oh wait there's a stadium nearby, isn't there


eta honked 27 Nov 2021 17:37 +0000

[cw selfie] I put blue powder on my eyes, and it looks ...like I put blue powder on my eyes

I kinda like it though!

(also, badly applied lipstick)


eta honked 27 Nov 2021 16:03 +0000

that's er. reassuring I guess?

[doing a pacman -Syu]


eta honked 27 Nov 2021 15:45 +0000

it appears GNOME will redshift one of my displays, but not the other

yesterday it was my external monitor, today it's my internal one

(and don't get me started on the issue where it just refuses to draw anything on the internal monitor sometimes)